I don't start on my high school team. Yet, on weekend, "unofficial" matches, I have beaten my team's number #2 and #3 singles players 6-4 (just one set) and 6-3, 6-3. I played the former #3 singles player, now an NITM college player, and technically lost 2-6, 4-5, though he retired in the second set, citing "I haven't played this bad in a year." I lost 6-7 (1) and 6-7 (4) to the two eventual #2 doubles players during an official practice session. I felt like during the 6-7 (1) match, in retrospect, I was just pushing the ball. No form, no footwork, nothing. Total choke. I lost the 6-7 (4) match because my opponent changed his style on the spot, and I wasn't smart enough to exploit it. His topspin groundstrokes were nonexistent that day; he reverted to slicing and dicing, pushing if you must. My hit on the rise style was totally shattered. I resorted to pushing the ball and I didn't have enough patience to last that long. How can playing more matches toughen me up mentally? How can I use the form I practice during practice in a real match?