Good grief. Another match, another tough loss. Last night I played court two in combo doubles. My partner and I are 3.0s; we played a 3.0 and a 3.5. We lost, 6-4, 6-4. Both sets ended with me serving at 4-5 to stay in the set and getting broken. Tell me *that's* not demoralizing. I don't get it. I am *so* much better than I was a year ago. My partner is no slouch either. Yet we must have lost 50 points when our baseline shots strayed too close to the net person, who would volley it between us. We never got a racquet on any of these volleys. Our passing shots didn't pass, our lobs didn't lob. We had great success against the stronger server by playing two back, but we shouldn't have to resort to such defensive play to stay in the match. How come my improved play isn't translating into actual wins? How come I feel like I'm too conservative in matches, that my inner wild beast won't come out? I mean, I played OK for what I did, but I just didn't do enough. Today is definitely one of those "Perhaps I have selected the wrong hobby" days.