Today I played a pusher in my second match. This was so frustrating. Let me add, it was VERY VERY Windy. The balls would go out so much. The whole match I lost to him mentally. I would scream mentally and drop f-bombs there and here. I never said it directly to him though, because that would be mean. Anyways, i would hit it to him, but then he would lob consistantly, and I have trouble with such high bouncing balls. His serve was a poke, just to get it in the box. Jesus, I could usually blast serves and I can ace very many people at this rec center but what surprised me was that I was dragged down to his serve. I started poking my serves in as well. Why does this happen? I was clearly the inferior player here, I was mentally weak, and I couldn't concentrate on any game plan. All my strokes became like his, and I just dinked it back to him. I wasn't playing normally why is this? I was so scared of the wind, and I was so frustrated at his strokes, I just could dink it back. I'm so ashamed..