Sory if this is not a topic for this sub-forum Its simple: since I'm playing in my two recreational competitions, I have NEVER EVER won a championship tiebreak. Someone might say: well, you're not to intelligent. You've been outsmardted. Maybe, but ALL THE FREAKING TIME? No, actually I know where is the problem, its in my head. I have unbeliavable fear of losing, even when I play matches in which I have nothing to lose (like today, I was playing one of 3-4 best players in the competition which I already won once this year, but in a friendly match). Maybe its not even fear of a loss. In begging it was definitely, but today, I think it has grown into fear of super-tiebreak itself. Why, I have no clue. This year I even managed to lose a match against really wrecked player (you might ask, if hes that bad, how the hell did he took a set from you in the first place - I played injured last half of a match), altghough I had a lead of huge 5-0!!! Today, I was determined to stop this spree. To end it once for all times, in a match where wasnt even expected to win (my ranking was 18th, his 2nd). But yet I managed to get scared again, my arms went totally stiff, my legs felt like I was dying... ...it was **3-4, I served two double faults. Before first of those two, I was constatnly repeating in my head: you'll make a DF; you'll surely make a DF now... And I did. I made two consecutive DFs eventhough I made only one (or MAAYYBE two) before in the whole match. Then I unluckily slipped in the next point, and it was 3-7*. The end. I lost again. ANd Im very, VERY frustrated. This curse or whatever it is has been following for a while, but today... I just cannot take this anymore, just cannot!!! I'm thinking about quiting competitions only becuase of that. The worst thing is: I actually played a great match, close to my maximum. Until the CTB. Then I was just another guy, another player. Is there a solution to my problem? I started to believe there isn't. Nothing helps. I can repeat to my self one hundred times things like: "you are better, you have him served, loosen your arms, take the pressure off, play relaxed, play for the play itself, not for points..." but it doesnt happen. Bad Me always prevails. Negative Ego always takes over in crucial moments. And not only in tennis. I dont know how to get over it. There is so much matches that I have lost this year in which I could've and should've won. DUnno. Kill me.