So has the definition of love become so watered down? OP had a big crush on her. An infatuation. He lusted
for her. Nothing wrong with that. It's just lust =/= love.
OP should be fine. Unless you somehow found love at first sight, this dejection happens to most of us, men and women. Just keep your head up. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4go5eKroNUI