Well, that's one of the cost of the enlightenment you get from watching too many youtube clips, reading posts here and elsewhere trying to improve, and so forth. Once you get into this realm where self observation of muscles and movements is encouraged without bound, you must either go all the way and keep learning and thinking and go through such ups and downs or just forget about trying to technically improve but just try to use whatever you have to enjoy the game at one level.
That's why some coaches discourage students to ask questions about technical details instead strengthen the trust and just focus on following the instructions given. As much as it sounds ridiculous some people can get good this way.
I say...go all the way now you've already crossed. try focusing on coordination much more (like yoga, pilates, alexander technique, etc) instead of too much technical details. it can be very rewarding at the end but no guarantee.