I'm exactly like you when it comes to volley. However, i think I'm further down the road in realization than you are.
Like you I initially thought learning the volley would bring up my game. Not so. It just made my game and my time at the court more miserable! lol. Volley, like any other skills, is not for everyone or enjoyable for everyone. I realize that if you don't have it, don't like it from the get go, you will probably not like it or get better at it. And because this is recreational tennis we should simply do what we enjoy even if it's lopsided.
I suggest that you move on and stick with what you enjoy