Listen, your doing the right thing. Stay positive and stay on course. You have a lot of good advice here and some bad, but I think people who tell you that you cant do it, only make you stronger willed to do it. Take me for example. I started playing in 2005 at the level of 3.5 in Texas. Ended up #1 in singles and doubles the next yr. of 2006. Go ahead, look it up. Then got moved to 4.0 then 4.5...This is my first year playing at the Open level the whole yr. and am #22 ytd and #32 rolling 12. Here's the kicker...I was told I would never be anything more than a 4.0...I have played young ones, old ones, faster, ones on and on. When I was told I could'nt, I did. Plus, I am 44 years old, and a former Marine. A little secret till now that a lot of my opponents didnt know. Dont judge a book by it's cover. Judge it by it's heart. Keep playing open and it will come, your goal should be if you can win one game...you can win a set...if you win a set....you can win a match. Simple, and Good Luck!