Okay. I just saw the grid for the a tournament that is going to be held this weekend. I am taking part in two series. Doubles and singles. My first match is a doubles match versus very easy players, which is why I am really nervous, because I am afraid of losing to them. Another one is a singles one, which is versus a player I need to play well versus in order to win. Somehow I am not as nervous versus him because I know I do not have the pressure of losing, cause he doesn't live in the same area and I really want to win. This is just not right... I want to win both of these matches but I just can't get my mind set. I have been to gym a lot two weeks prior to this weekend and practised my serve a lot and I have been confident about my skills, but now all that confidience is gone. I can't get myself togheter even though I am really trying. I know I got what it takes to win both of those matches but with my broken spirit I am afraid that it is the fear that will take over when the match begins.