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It is with a heavy heart that I have to announce an indefinite hiatus from this website. This isn't some attempt at self-aggrandizement but rather a message for anyone wondering where I went. I am being genuine when I say typing this out has my eyes swelling with actual tears. I never thought an internet forum would be that powerful of a thing to let go for the time being.

I'll keep it short and sweet. I've been dealing with quite a lot in real life and have been the subject of a nasty relationship in real life. The person in question turned out to have narcissistic qualities which destroyed me completely (I have Bipolar/Manic Depression). This was the perfect disastrous combination.

I am at a crossroads similar to @Djokovic2011 when he had to leave. I am about to be virtually homeless and have truly no idea what I want to do with my life. I am 25 and completely rudderless. I let this toxic relationship fester and get me off of my main mission: taking care of myself. I buried myself on here to hide a lot of the pain. Behind all the memes and jokes is a broken man. A guy that fakes a smile so that everyone else is happy. And it is a role I am usually happy to play.

But for now I must take a break, and I felt I'd be remiss in my duties if I did not let you all know. I just want to say thank you TTW. The bonds I have formed here. The friendships. They're all real. I don't have any enemies on this website. Any disagreements were either just banter/debate or me in a downswing caused by my mental illness.

I will be back. I do not know when. But I will be back. I'd tag all of the friends I have made on here but there are too many. I do not plan on posting anything after this for the foreseeable future. It could be weeks, it could be months. It will definitely be quite a while. And I will miss it every single day. But I have to focus on me. Only I can pull myself out of this subterranean physical and mental feeling. Nobody will do it for me. But fight I must. And fight I will.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

PS: If the mods deem this unsuitable content for the forum, so be it. I just ask that you please allow it to stand for a week or two so that those important to me see it. Thank you for all you do for this website. It has become a cornerstone of my life and a great escape.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)

 
#12
It is with a heavy heart that I have to announce an indefinite hiatus from this website. This isn't some attempt at self-aggrandizement but rather a message for anyone wondering where I went. I am being genuine when I say typing this out has my eyes swelling with actual tears. I never thought an internet forum would be that powerful of a thing to let go for the time being.

I'll keep it short and sweet. I've been dealing with quite a lot in real life and have been the subject of a nasty relationship in real life. The person in question turned out to have narcissistic qualities which destroyed me completely (I have Bipolar/Manic Depression). This was the perfect disastrous combination.

I am at a crossroads similar to @Djokovic2011 when he had to leave. I am about to be virtually homeless and have truly no idea what I want to do with my life. I am 25 and completely rudderless. I let this toxic relationship fester and get me off of my main mission: taking care of myself. I buried myself on here to hide a lot of the pain. Behind all the memes and jokes is a broken man. A guy that fakes a smile so that everyone else is happy. And it is a role I am usually happy to play.

But for now I must take a break, and I felt I'd be remiss in my duties if I did not let you all know. I just want to say thank you TTW. The bonds I have formed here. The friendships. They're all real. I don't have any enemies on this website. Any disagreements were either just banter/debate or me in a downswing caused by my mental illness.

I will be back. I do not know when. But I will be back. I'd tag all of the friends I have made on here but there are too many. I do not plan on posting anything after this for the foreseeable future. It could be weeks, it could be months. It will definitely be quite a while. And I will miss it every single day. But I have to focus on me. Only I can pull myself out of this subterranean physical and mental feeling. Nobody will do it for me. But fight I must. And fight I will.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

PS: If the mods deem this unsuitable content for the forum, so be it. I just ask that you please allow it to stand for a week or two so that those important to me see it. Thank you for all you do for this website. It has become a cornerstone of my life and a great escape.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)

@FedFosterWallace
@ak24alive
@TheGhostOfAgassi

How strange this all is.

We were just talking about having to say goodbye to the very thing you love for a larger purpose.

@Federer and Del Potro

Come back healed. Come back when you don’t need this place. Come back when you don’t need love, but want it again.

Come back strong.
 
#17
Hope you get out of this mess man. I’m not gonna act like I can relate to exactly what you are feeling and are going through, but there’s definitely light at the end of the tunnel. Mental illnesses completely ruin your life if you face them alone. You can’t use the very thing that’s not healthy and causing you problems to try and recover. Please seek help. Friends. Family. Professional. Any. Talking to someone will feel like a brick has been lifted off your chest. All the best. Genuinely hope you get through this.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)
 
#26
It is with a heavy heart that I have to announce an indefinite hiatus from this website. This isn't some attempt at self-aggrandizement but rather a message for anyone wondering where I went. I am being genuine when I say typing this out has my eyes swelling with actual tears. I never thought an internet forum would be that powerful of a thing to let go for the time being.

I'll keep it short and sweet. I've been dealing with quite a lot in real life and have been the subject of a nasty relationship in real life. The person in question turned out to have narcissistic qualities which destroyed me completely (I have Bipolar/Manic Depression). This was the perfect disastrous combination.

I am at a crossroads similar to @Djokovic2011 when he had to leave. I am about to be virtually homeless and have truly no idea what I want to do with my life. I am 25 and completely rudderless. I let this toxic relationship fester and get me off of my main mission: taking care of myself. I buried myself on here to hide a lot of the pain. Behind all the memes and jokes is a broken man. A guy that fakes a smile so that everyone else is happy. And it is a role I am usually happy to play.

But for now I must take a break, and I felt I'd be remiss in my duties if I did not let you all know. I just want to say thank you TTW. The bonds I have formed here. The friendships. They're all real. I don't have any enemies on this website. Any disagreements were either just banter/debate or me in a downswing caused by my mental illness.

I will be back. I do not know when. But I will be back. I'd tag all of the friends I have made on here but there are too many. I do not plan on posting anything after this for the foreseeable future. It could be weeks, it could be months. It will definitely be quite a while. And I will miss it every single day. But I have to focus on me. Only I can pull myself out of this subterranean physical and mental feeling. Nobody will do it for me. But fight I must. And fight I will.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

PS: If the mods deem this unsuitable content for the forum, so be it. I just ask that you please allow it to stand for a week or two so that those important to me see it. Thank you for all you do for this website. It has become a cornerstone of my life and a great escape.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)

I'm so sorry to hear what you're going through mate. :( I'm sending you nothing but love and best wishes and really hope you're feeling better soon(and it does get better believe me) and that we'll be seeing you again in the not too distant future. This place won't be the same without you.
 

Aussie Darcy

Talk Tennis Guru
#29
Sending you best wishes and thinking of you during this tough time. Hope to see you once again in the near future.

Just like to use this thread to say if anyone’s struggling and needs a chat, my messages are always open and I’m sure others would agree with me. We all bond here about tennis and other things but it’s easy to forget we all have our own personal demons and such and sometimes having someone to chat to can help.

Good luck once more FedPo :)
 

Mainad

Bionic Poster
#30
It is with a heavy heart that I have to announce an indefinite hiatus from this website. This isn't some attempt at self-aggrandizement but rather a message for anyone wondering where I went. I am being genuine when I say typing this out has my eyes swelling with actual tears. I never thought an internet forum would be that powerful of a thing to let go for the time being.

I'll keep it short and sweet. I've been dealing with quite a lot in real life and have been the subject of a nasty relationship in real life. The person in question turned out to have narcissistic qualities which destroyed me completely (I have Bipolar/Manic Depression). This was the perfect disastrous combination.

I am at a crossroads similar to @Djokovic2011 when he had to leave. I am about to be virtually homeless and have truly no idea what I want to do with my life. I am 25 and completely rudderless. I let this toxic relationship fester and get me off of my main mission: taking care of myself. I buried myself on here to hide a lot of the pain. Behind all the memes and jokes is a broken man. A guy that fakes a smile so that everyone else is happy. And it is a role I am usually happy to play.

But for now I must take a break, and I felt I'd be remiss in my duties if I did not let you all know. I just want to say thank you TTW. The bonds I have formed here. The friendships. They're all real. I don't have any enemies on this website. Any disagreements were either just banter/debate or me in a downswing caused by my mental illness.

I will be back. I do not know when. But I will be back. I'd tag all of the friends I have made on here but there are too many. I do not plan on posting anything after this for the foreseeable future. It could be weeks, it could be months. It will definitely be quite a while. And I will miss it every single day. But I have to focus on me. Only I can pull myself out of this subterranean physical and mental feeling. Nobody will do it for me. But fight I must. And fight I will.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

PS: If the mods deem this unsuitable content for the forum, so be it. I just ask that you please allow it to stand for a week or two so that those important to me see it. Thank you for all you do for this website. It has become a cornerstone of my life and a great escape.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)

Sorry to hear you've been going through so much pain. Take care of yourself, get well and come back to us as soon as you are able to do. All the very best!
 
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#31
Sending you best wishes and thinking of you during this tough time. Hope to see you once again in the near future.

Just like to use this thread to say if anyone’s struggling and needs a chat, my messages are always open and I’m sure others would agree with me. We all bond here about tennis and other things but it’s easy to forget we all have our own personal demons and such and sometimes having someone to chat to can help.

Good luck once more FedPo :)
That’s very kind of you. :)
 
#35
TTW won't be the same without you bro. I went through something very similar a little over a year ago right before I joined. Thankfully everything worked out for me. My mom was sick and dying and at the same time I was having kids left and right and didn't know what to do. I found the solution in a bottle or so I thought I did. Now my mom is gone(rest her soul) and I found peace finally through my children and eventually their mother(crazy but I love her). Keep your head up and live life the best way you know how. Look forward to seeing you again.
 
#38
Only Scottish song I know...:D
"Shut up, I'm singing!" "Da duh duh, da duh duh!" :D



Seriously though, I'll really miss your poasts. You were the coolest Federer/Del Potro fan on this forum. ;)
Hopefully, things get betterer for you. Just keep your head up, work hard and things will definitely improve for you.

Wishing you all the best!
BD (Danny)
 
#41
TTW won't be the same without you bro. I went through something very similar a little over a year ago right before I joined. Thankfully everything worked out for me. My mom was sick and dying and at the same time I was having kids left and right and didn't know what to do. I found the solution in a bottle or so I thought I did. Now my mom is gone(rest her soul) and I found peace finally through my children and eventually their mother(crazy but I love her). Keep your head up and live life the best way you know how. Look forward to seeing you again.
Just a quick sidebar here; How many kids do you have and I'm guessing they're all fairly close in age?
 
C

Chadillac

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#45
It is with a heavy heart that I have to announce an indefinite hiatus from this website. This isn't some attempt at self-aggrandizement but rather a message for anyone wondering where I went. I am being genuine when I say typing this out has my eyes swelling with actual tears. I never thought an internet forum would be that powerful of a thing to let go for the time being.

I'll keep it short and sweet. I've been dealing with quite a lot in real life and have been the subject of a nasty relationship in real life. The person in question turned out to have narcissistic qualities which destroyed me completely (I have Bipolar/Manic Depression). This was the perfect disastrous combination.

I am at a crossroads similar to @Djokovic2011 when he had to leave. I am about to be virtually homeless and have truly no idea what I want to do with my life. I am 25 and completely rudderless. I let this toxic relationship fester and get me off of my main mission: taking care of myself. I buried myself on here to hide a lot of the pain. Behind all the memes and jokes is a broken man. A guy that fakes a smile so that everyone else is happy. And it is a role I am usually happy to play.

But for now I must take a break, and I felt I'd be remiss in my duties if I did not let you all know. I just want to say thank you TTW. The bonds I have formed here. The friendships. They're all real. I don't have any enemies on this website. Any disagreements were either just banter/debate or me in a downswing caused by my mental illness.

I will be back. I do not know when. But I will be back. I'd tag all of the friends I have made on here but there are too many. I do not plan on posting anything after this for the foreseeable future. It could be weeks, it could be months. It will definitely be quite a while. And I will miss it every single day. But I have to focus on me. Only I can pull myself out of this subterranean physical and mental feeling. Nobody will do it for me. But fight I must. And fight I will.

This isn't goodbye, it's see you later.

PS: If the mods deem this unsuitable content for the forum, so be it. I just ask that you please allow it to stand for a week or two so that those important to me see it. Thank you for all you do for this website. It has become a cornerstone of my life and a great escape.

Love you all,

Federer and Del Potro (Matt)

Where do you live?
 
#48
In the meantime, [at the appropriate time] you might wanna re-entertain the notion of going to graduate school or perhaps write something to the effect of The Fault In Our Stars and be the next Jeff Green? All the best to you @Federer and Del Potro and let me leave you with something from Cormack McCarthy:

“You have to carry the fire.”
“I don’t know how to.”
“Yes, you do.”
“Is the fire real? The fire?”
“Yes it is.”
“Where is it? I don’t know where it is.”
“Yes you do. It’s inside you. It always was there. I can see.”
 
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