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What takes you there? Vietnam is one of those countries I’ve always wanted to put some time and effort into but have no idea where to begin.
I'm a Hitman, I go everywhere. ;)

Machu Pichu



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I have travelled this world during my competitive bodybuilding days, I have friends and connections in almost every corner of this planet. They don't call me The Hitman for nothing. ;) But yes, I am currently based in South East Asia, Hanoi Northern Vietnam at the time of writing this post.
 
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I'm a Hitman, I go everywhere. ;)

Machu Pichu



Costa Rica



I have travelled this world during my competitive bodybuilding days, I have friends and connections in almost every corner of this planet. They don't call me The Hitman for nothing. ;) But yes, I am currently based in South East Asia, Hanoi Northern Vietnam at the time of writing this post.
That’s an amazing and well rounded lifestyle you’ve cobbled together off a passion, few people know how to put their passions to as good a use.

In some ways I’ve been gangbusters learning tennis the past 4-5 years because I want to have the option of doing something similar. The business is nice and good, and I enjoy what I do but undeniably it is it’s own prison. To be free and able to play tennis wherever and however I want to for the rest of my life seems like a worthwhile pursuit.

So how come Vietnam though? Tell tell more. I’m asking because I don’t know the first thing about it. Off what little I do know it seems like the sort of cultural complexity I would very be drawn in by.

Many Taiwanese friends have relocated their factories from mainland China over to Vietnam so I’m compelled to learn more on a number of levels.
 
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LOL - That is because I have blood from both Southern European and Eastern European in me. ;)
P.S.

You might also easily pass for Persian. I’m sure on your visits to the region you may have come across it before.
 
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That’s an amazing and well rounded lifestyle you’ve cobbled together off a passion, few people know how to put their passions to as good a use.

In some ways I’ve been gangbusters learning tennis the past 4-5 years because I want to have the option of doing something similar. The business is nice and good, and I enjoy what I do but undeniably it is it’s own prison. To be free and able to play tennis wherever and however I want to for the rest of my life seems like a worthwhile pursuit.

So how come Vietnam though? Tell tell more. I’m asking because I don’t know the first thing about it. Off what little I do know it seems like the sort of cultural complexity I would very be drawn in by.

Many Taiwanese friends have relocated their factories from mainland China over to Vietnam so I’m compelled to learn more on a number of levels.
If I was to tell you my full story, you wouldn't believe it. But yes, from standing on the Olympia stage in front of Arnold in Las Vegas, to travelling to almost every corner of this planet, I have some crazy stories. I always told myself when I left my home in California, that I was going to make the whole world my home, along the way I met amazing people all over this planet, I speak six languages fluently, English, Russian and Spanish being the obvious ones, I'll keep the other three a secret for now...but start learning Vietnamese now.

When you ask the question why Vietnam, well many reasons.

The first is growing up watch Rambo, always made me fascinated with this place. Secondly, I wanted to see sunrise in Halong Bay, one of the most beautiful place I have ever seen, and trust me, I have seen more than my fair share. Also, I have very good friends here, that are close to me, I am a Godfather to a boy here from a friend of mine. I will be in Vietnam for a while, before going to Buenos Aires in February.

P.S.

You might also easily pass for Persian. I’m sure on your visits to the region you may have come across it before.
I get easily passed for many things, including Brazilian, Mexican, Colombian, Spanish, Russian, Persian, Greek, Portuguese, Romanian among others.
 
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If I was to tell you my full story, you wouldn't believe it. But yes, from standing on the Olympia stage in front of Arnold in Las Vegas, to travelling to almost every corner of this planet, I have some crazy stories. I always told myself when I left my home in California, that I was going to make the whole world my home, along the way I met amazing people all over this planet, I speak six languages fluently, English, Russian and Spanish being the obvious ones, I'll keep the other three a secret for now...but start learning Vietnamese now.

When you ask the question why Vietnam, well many reasons.

The first is growing up watch Rambo, always made me fascinated with this place. Secondly, I wanted to see sunrise in Halong Bay, one of the most beautiful place I have ever seen, and trust me, I have seen more than my fair share. Also, I have very good friends here, that are close to me, I am a Godfather to a boy here from a friend of mine. I will be in Vietnam for a while, before going to Buenos Aires in February.



I get easily passed for many things, including Brazilian, Mexican, Colombian, Spanish, Russian, Persian, Greek, Portuguese, Romanian among others.

Hahahaha. This is awesome.

Terrific.

Trying to make sense of my own adventures and choices all these years the only explanation I can come up with is I’m trying to explore for myself many of the movies, books and second generation friends I had growing up. I’d see peculiar things in some Bruce Lee or Jackie Chan movie and wondered “how would that be?”

Honestly that’s my best approximation of an explanation. I can sure believe it must have led you to some crazy stories and adventures.

Six languages is ridiculous. I wish I had an iota of your proficiency for languages. The one I do speak with fluency seems to be getting worse the more time I spend away from Canada.

Languages would be one of the first things I’d stress if I ever had children, to communicate effectively seems essential in our ever shrinking world.

Following “Rambo” is perhaps the best possible explanation I can imagine for “why Vietnam?”

In my own way, different but similar, what compelled me initially to the country a little were “Full Metal Jacket” and yes, “Good morning Vietnam”

I like your style Hitman. I may not completely relate to Stallone or the subculture of bodybuilding but making the world your own resonates an awful lot with me.

Nicely done, indeed.
 
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If I was to tell you my full story, you wouldn't believe it. But yes, from standing on the Olympia stage in front of Arnold in Las Vegas, to travelling to almost every corner of this planet, I have some crazy stories. I always told myself when I left my home in California, that I was going to make the whole world my home, along the way I met amazing people all over this planet, I speak six languages fluently, English, Russian and Spanish being the obvious ones, I'll keep the other three a secret for now...but start learning Vietnamese now.

When you ask the question why Vietnam, well many reasons.

The first is growing up watch Rambo, always made me fascinated with this place. Secondly, I wanted to see sunrise in Halong Bay, one of the most beautiful place I have ever seen, and trust me, I have seen more than my fair share. Also, I have very good friends here, that are close to me, I am a Godfather to a boy here from a friend of mine. I will be in Vietnam for a while, before going to Buenos Aires in February.



I get easily passed for many things, including Brazilian, Mexican, Colombian, Spanish, Russian, Persian, Greek, Portuguese, Romanian among others.
Hahahaha. This is awesome.

Terrific.

Trying to make sense of my own adventures and choices all these years the only explanation I can come up with is I’m trying to explore for myself many of the movies, books and second generation friends I had growing up. I’d see peculiar things in some Bruce Lee or Jackie Chan movie and wondered “how would that be?”

Honestly that’s my best approximation of an explanation. I can sure believe it must have led you to some crazy stories and adventures.

Six languages is ridiculous. I wish I had an iota of your proficiency for languages. The one I do speak with fluency seems to be getting worse the more time I spend away from Canada.

Languages would be one of the first things I’d stress if I ever had children, to communicate effectively seems essential in our ever shrinking world.

Following “Rambo” is perhaps the best possible explanation I can imagine for “why Vietnam?”

In my own way, different but similar, what compelled me initially to the country a little were “Full Metal Jacket” and yes, “Good morning Vietnam”

I like your style Hitman. I may not completely relate to Stallone or the subculture of bodybuilding but making the world your own resonates an awful lot with me.

Nicely done, indeed.
I like the both of you. I think you are the guys who can tell me stories about the world on a cold winter evening, late into the night.
 
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Hahahaha. This is awesome.

Terrific.

Trying to make sense of my own adventures and choices all these years the only explanation I can come up with is I’m trying to explore for myself many of the movies, books and second generation friends I had growing up. I’d see peculiar things in some Bruce Lee or Jackie Chan movie and wondered “how would that be?”

Honestly that’s my best approximation of an explanation. I can sure believe it must have led you to some crazy stories and adventures.

Six languages is ridiculous. I wish I had an iota of your proficiency for languages. The one I do speak with fluency seems to be getting worse the more time I spend away from Canada.

Languages would be one of the first things I’d stress if I ever had children, to communicate effectively seems essential in our ever shrinking world.

Following “Rambo” is perhaps the best possible explanation I can imagine for “why Vietnam?”

In my own way, different but similar, what compelled me initially to the country a little were “Full Metal Jacket” and yes, “Good morning Vietnam”

I like your style Hitman. I may not completely relate to Stallone or the world of bodybuilding but making the world your own resonates an awful lot with me.

Nicely done, indeed.
Well if you knew anything about me, you would know I grew up watching the Rambo movies, so getting out to Vietnam was always on the back on my mind. Plus I put in several weeks of intense brutal training, so I had the Rambo physique, just added a little something to my trip )))

Halong Bay is one of the most amazing things I have seen, I was kayaking around those water mountains, breathtaking watching the sunrise. The place got really famous after Kong Skull Island, which only made me want to get out here even more. Nothing quite like the street food here in Hanoi, and after having spent time in Tokyo, I am very proficient with chopsticks, surprised everyone here. LOL

I have to live my life to the absolute max, I want it all, the world class body and the world itself...
 
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Well if you knew anything about me, you would know I grew up watching the Rambo movies, so getting out to Vietnam was always on the back on my mind. Plus I put in several weeks of intense brutal training, so I had the Rambo physique, just added a little something to my trip )))

Halong Bay is one of the most amazing things I have seen, I was kayaking around those water mountains, breathtaking watching the sunrise. The place got really famous after Kong Skull Island, which only made me want to get out here even more. Nothing quite like the street food here in Hanoi, and after having spent time in Tokyo, I am very proficient with chopsticks, surprised everyone here. LOL

I have to live my life to the absolute max, I want it all, the world class body and the world itself...
I've heard about the awesome street food there in Vietnam, its one of those little things I've recently tacked on to my life. Taiwan has great street food culture and of course Japan as you already know. I've sort of developed an addiction to the various Asian brothy noodle soups the past few years - Ramen, Taiwanese Beef Noodle, Pho, Rameon. I would've never imagined any of this happening, back in Canada I was such a boring eater. The unique Asian fruits have also become a great source of comfort; guava, rambutan, mangosteen, dragonfruit etc.

Ha! chopsticks.

Once you get used to them, really really get used to them, you sort of begin to understand why all that complicated Western cutlery is a bit passé. You can have an exquisite and delicate meal or some horrific street side atrocity, all with the same eating implement. My first weeks back in the West I'm invariably asking establishments if they have chopsticks.

World to yourself huh?

Why the hell not?
 
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I've heard about the awesome street food there in Vietnam, its one of those little things I've recently tacked on to my life. Taiwan has great street food culture and of course Japan as you already know. I've sort of developed an addiction to the various Asian brothy noodle soups the past few years - Ramen, Taiwanese Beef Noodle, Pho, Rameon. I would've never imagined any of this happening, back in Canada I was such a boring eater. The unique Asian fruits have also become a great source of comfort; guava, rambutan, mangosteen, dragonfruit etc.

Ha! chopsticks.

Once you get used to them, really really get used to them, you sort of begin to understand why all that complicated Western cutlery is a bit passé. You can have an exquisite and delicate meal or some horrific street side atrocity, all with the same eating implement. My first weeks back in the West I'm invariably asking establishments if they have chopsticks.

World to yourself huh?

Why the hell not?
To be honest, I only ate the street food to say I have tried it. I am still on my own diet, and that is not going to change no matter where I am.

Bodybuilding is 80 percent nutrition, so I cannot hold this muscle unless I am eating the right foods at the right time, as a natural athlete. That is something I just have to deal with as soon as I stepped into another side of the world, but it does not take me long, which reminds me...

I took this photo in Sapa, in the mountains of Vietnam.



Tennis courts. Now, some may know this about me, some may not, but on my extensive travels around the world, I always ask a set standard questions. And a couple of them are the following.

Do you watch tennis?
Can you name me a tennis tournament?
Can you name me any tennis players?

I ask quite a few out there in Sapa, when I was around those courts. Of the people that said they watch tennis, 95% only knew of Wimbledon, a few knew of AO. About 78% could only name Federer and knew of him, about 10% knew Nadal, and about 5% knew of Djokovic.
 
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I like the both of you. I think you are the guys who can tell me stories about the world on a cold winter evening, late into the night.
When the big 3 retire and all this seems far far behind us, corralling a TTW gaggle does seem like an interesting idea. Rent some big property in the middle of farm and make an adventure out of it. Who knows? It is a unique forum the way we're squished together in here, friend and foe alike.

Like the fellow below you..I wouldn't at all mind meeting him someday.

Noone who is out in the nature for examining the nature and enjoying it, dresses like he is going to the local mall.

It is incongruous.

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There is something oddly noble in his perverse bloody-mindedness to find issue with me. Or maybe, I've realised, I like to think such perverse bloody-mindedness is noble because it reminds me of myself trying to order pizza to be delivered in an alien, smarmy and non-pizza-delivering country. Nobleness is one word for making a fuss about the trivial inevitabilities of life, but there are others.

I do wonder sometimes if he'd throw a drink in my face, it would be interesting to find out.

To be honest, I only ate the street food to say I have tried it. I am still on my own diet, and that is not going to change no matter where I am.

Bodybuilding is 80 percent nutrition, so I cannot hold this muscle unless I am eating the right foods at the right time, as a natural athlete. That is something I just have to deal with as soon as I stepped into another side of the world, but it does not take me long, which reminds me...

I took this photo in Sapa, in the mountains of Vietnam.



Tennis courts. Now, some may know this about me, some may not, but on my extensive travels around the world, I always ask a set standard questions. And a couple of them are the following.

Do you watch tennis?
Can you name me a tennis tournament?
Can you name me any tennis players?

I ask quite a few out there in Sapa, when I was around those courts. Of the people that said they watch tennis, 95% only knew of Wimbledon, a few knew of AO. About 78% could only name Federer and knew of him, about 10% knew Nadal, and about 5% knew of Djokovic.
Ha!

It’s the reason I ended up choosing tennis, that certain international flavour. Whenever I’ve freshly landed in some new city or country I make sure to carry my racquet in my trusty gym sac so the handle pokes out from it. Invariably, someone like you will come along and ask if I play tennis, or if I know where to play tennis, or even who my favourite player is.

Tennis is one of the best ways to make friends, the niche subculture is great if you approach it in a certain way. I’ve long observed I enjoy playing tennis in some crusty and small court in the middle of nowhere over a sumptuous country club. The poshness, the elitist component, the fancy attire make for interesting accoutrements, but underneath it is exactly as Agassi said in his HOF speech: its about connecting.

Looks awesome Hitman. The weather and topography of Vietnam has also been a point of fascination for me. I enjoy beaches and islands of course but I also have a special place in my heart for mountains and valleys.
 
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@Zara Are you okay? I saw your posts on the break room thread, I’ve never seen you like that before.

I’m thinking now you were genuinely upset with us last night If I said something to upset you I’m sorry.
 

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Last night was a rough one.

My mom was very upset with me. She gave me a good blessing out. I won’t go into detail, but she has the distinct ability to make you feel like the most worthless person on the earth. I’ve admittedly been a jerk towards her during her time of bad health recently, not controlling my resentment of not being able to do anything.

We got in a ugly talk about whether I was capable of truly loving her or anyone else, and I didn’t know how to respond. It’s a very difficult thing for me. I think I am capable of it but the emotion of it doesn’t happen frequently, I can’t turn it on and off like a switch.

It all boiled down to respect for her. She said I’m just going to have to accept that life is grinding to a halt for now.

Anyways it brought back an ugly thought I sometimes think which is, what is wrong with me? Am I truly capable of loving, or am I really just a horrible person and a monster as she said in jest last night? I’m not sure I want to know the answer.
 

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@Zara Are you okay? I saw your posts on the break room thread, I’ve never seen you like that before.

I’m thinking now you were genuinely upset with us last night If I said something to upset you I’m sorry.
Listen, I don't know how to tell you this politely but I don't even have the faintest interest in becoming anyone's special friend here. That is not my intention. That's why I keep my Conversations closed because I want to remain casual and would like to come and go as I feel and when I have time. I do enjoy some company better than the others but it's still friendly and casual.

But anyway, lately, that has been compromised because you've been tagging me a lot lately especially since the day you initiated the connection with me on the Schizophrenia thread. And you have bombarded me with all sorts of sad personal stories and there were times I tried to help you too, but lately, I feel I can't come and go with as much ease because you are always waiting for me and leaving me all these recommendations that I really don't have the time for it. Did I ask for any of this? And you did this to me first time too. And you are too quick to play the victim role too when things don't go your way.

You do realize that I only have so much patience and eventually going to run out of it. Doctor, Hydro, Azure or whathisname all seem to be really nice friendly people and seem to care for you. Why don't you just redirect your attention to them where you'd get the favour back? You can clearly see that I am really not interested in any of this and I never asked for it. Hope you understand the gist of it and let me be.
 
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Also wanted to add that if you could find a fine balance then I am fine with it. Have fun I say so I am not cutting you completely off but I need to feel that I am free and not overwhelmed by it.
 

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Fair. I see. Thank you for your honesty.

@Zara If you can stand to read one novel here and respond I promise to leave you alone until next weekend after tonight (and if I go back on that you can cut me out completely)

I cling onto people that fascinate me. It is as you said almost a possessiveness type thing. You and Ghost are two such people. I understand that it makes you uncomfortable, it would anybody, I get it. It’s an addiction that gets fiendish at times.

I know you and others here have a life outside of this and that’s good, I’m glad for you guys. This forum is a bigger deal for me than most because it represents basically all my socialization. In real life I am a loner and find superficial conversations with others mostly draining.

I’m trying to rectify that in part, retaking up golf, trying to get a job etc. In fact that’s what triggered my mom’s rant at me last night was the fact there’s no way we can do that (see about the job) now because of her health. She was also later more calmly informing me that because of my lack of self sufficiency there’s no way I’d be able to do that anyways and I’d just lose my disability and have to live without a net. It’s hard to hear such things but they are true. With no other outlet I turn here.


I don’t really care strongly about many people. I’m not someone that goes around trying to be friends with everyone. But when I do get connected with someone I get infatuated with them, almost obsessed. I say this again not to make you uncomfortable but just stating how I feel about you. The best part of almost every day for me the last year is when you or Ghost post to me, it makes my heart sing for a few minutes and gives me a respite from my miserable self.

I say none of this to excuse by behavior which I know is bad. This forum is like a drug for me, and clinging to it is like an addiction I can’t kick.

My parents don’t know what I’ve been doing on here the last year and a half, if they knew even 5% of it (telling personal stuff, acting the way I often have) they’d kill me. I do this at great personal risk, knowing I could get caught anytime. And I feel guilty about that, basically lying to them and living a double life, but at the same time I think of it weren’t for my doing this I might be dead already or have done much worse things in real life.

I’m living my life very scared now, of what the future holds. I don’t know if in 5 years (whether my mom is around or not) I’ll be somewhat adjusted or if I’ll be in a pit. My nerves feel like they are top of my skin all the time with anxiety & guilt. That guy I was telling you about recently is what I’m terrified of becoming. He’s on a path to self destruction with drinking, partying, drugs, diabetes, no one to really care about him, etc. I feel like that could so easily end up being me.

I do understand. My ex girlfriend acted a lot like me when were together. She drove me and my parents bat crap crazy hanging onto me all the time and acting needy, demanding that I talk to her 2+hours a day to fight about our relationship status. She was starved for affection, she had no mom and a dad taking care of her that worked most of the time, and being autistic herself had no life or friends.

It drove us crazy, and for other reasons there’s no way the relationship could work. But I still hated with everything in me that I had to cut her off. And I understand why afterwards she sent me about 20 hysterical voicemails and begged me to go back, even trying to cause trouble for me the rest of that year. It’s easy to judge someone like that, but I understand, that’s how I feel here. I mean I wouldn’t try to cause you trouble but you know what I mean hopefully.

I love you as a great friend and I admit it hurts to hear the truth, but I want you to know I understand. I’ve been on both sides of this kind of situation. Peace be with you.

PS What I said about FFW was indeed uncalled for, I got caught up in group bullying which being who I am should know better.
 
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I always wondered why you @Zara instead of just quoting her.

She drove me and my parents bat crap crazy hanging onto me all the time and acting needy, demanding that I talk to her 2+hours a day to fight about our relationship status. She was starved for affection, she had no mom and dad taking care of her that worked most of the time, and being autistic herself had no life or friends.
Thats not very nice.
 
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