Doctor/Lawyer Red Devil
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Ever since I know myself I've been against it, giving the usual, repetitive, a bit irritating advice to people around me that regularly smoke, especially my peers. Though my parents stopped over a decade ago, which totally erased the image of them smoking in my head, I have also poked and criticized them for smoking for over 30 years. "What were you thinking" and stuff like that. It was more of a teasing, funny way than anything, plus that's one of very few things where I can say I will be a better example to any future kids than my parents have been to me. Personally, I tried one cigarette at one of the 18th birthday parties a bit less than three years ago and didn't like it at all. If anything, it convinced me even more that I will never have issues of that sort. For that reason, I decided I will only have one or two if there is some special occasion, which is a pretty similar approach to the one I have with alcohol. Even though there were several occasions from that point on, I didn't do it every time. That's how firm I was.
In the last month or so it changed though. One day at the end of May I hanged out with two of my colleagues, regular smokers, and had two of those symbolical cigarettes. A certain sports event went the way we liked and we had a minor celebration about it. Since then however there have been more days when I smoked than the days when I didn't. It was never a level of a regular smoker that goes through an entire pack or two per day. Mostly two cigarettes during a day. The maximum was six I think. There are some reasons I never went to a higher level, the level of most addicts. First of all, they were just as or more disgusting as they were good, I couldn't reach that level even if I tried. Secondly, even though none of the people close to me know about this little problem, I really don't want to be a hypocrite and criticize them for smoking when I've been kinda doing the same thing, even secretly. And most importantly, as a child I was battling bronchitis several times, which was quite irritating, while in the last 8 years or so I can proudly say I had no major health issues despite not being physically active. Almost no colds, fevers, stomachaches at all. No headaches ever. I had one eye nerve problem in 2014 that completely freaked me out at the time it was discovered but later when it turned out to be nothing serious, it made me appreciate health and focus on being healthy more than ever. And for these reasons, now I am also going to revert back to smoking only on some very special occasions, maybe not even then. Going back to firm mode again, starting... Now.
What are your experiences? If you ever were addicted before, was it difficult to stop? Are you currently addicted?
Whoever plans to reply, I'd appreciate if it's on topic and not some lame joke about sureshs.
In the last month or so it changed though. One day at the end of May I hanged out with two of my colleagues, regular smokers, and had two of those symbolical cigarettes. A certain sports event went the way we liked and we had a minor celebration about it. Since then however there have been more days when I smoked than the days when I didn't. It was never a level of a regular smoker that goes through an entire pack or two per day. Mostly two cigarettes during a day. The maximum was six I think. There are some reasons I never went to a higher level, the level of most addicts. First of all, they were just as or more disgusting as they were good, I couldn't reach that level even if I tried. Secondly, even though none of the people close to me know about this little problem, I really don't want to be a hypocrite and criticize them for smoking when I've been kinda doing the same thing, even secretly. And most importantly, as a child I was battling bronchitis several times, which was quite irritating, while in the last 8 years or so I can proudly say I had no major health issues despite not being physically active. Almost no colds, fevers, stomachaches at all. No headaches ever. I had one eye nerve problem in 2014 that completely freaked me out at the time it was discovered but later when it turned out to be nothing serious, it made me appreciate health and focus on being healthy more than ever. And for these reasons, now I am also going to revert back to smoking only on some very special occasions, maybe not even then. Going back to firm mode again, starting... Now.
What are your experiences? If you ever were addicted before, was it difficult to stop? Are you currently addicted?
Whoever plans to reply, I'd appreciate if it's on topic and not some lame joke about sureshs.
