TonLars
Professional
I appreciate the encouragement guys, thanks. Today was a tough day, and I dont feel so good about it. I played a pretty bad first set, lots of errors and lackluster energy, lost 6-2. Second set I battled, ran down nearly everything and wasnt beating myself, and lost 6-3. Wettengel played great and was just too good. Biggest key was his serve and return. He has one of the best serves ive ever faced and I had major problems with that, and he also was returning nearly every serve of mine and I didnt serve too bad for myself. Besides my errors, he just played extremely aggressive and I was on defense too much, so most of the credit goes to him although I felt I wasnt hitting as well and as penetrating as usual. He was nice, he admitted he played exceptionally well against me compared to this morning when he lost a set.
This loss hurts though. I had a tough time getting over my loss to Strode this summer, when I played very well and still got handled. I feel like Im no good at tennis, Im losing confidence. I dont think ill be as good as I want to be unfortunately. Alot of it is just having an upbringing in rural Minnesota without access to good players and far away from indoor courts, and not having been trained for the very best technique. Im sure I would have been alot better if I had grown up in ideal situations, and touring/playing full time after, but even then I probably still wouldnt have made it. It is hard because I am so competitive, and have such a burning desire to train and improve, and I play and practice at maximal focus and intensity nearly all the time, but I still lost. I have alot of speed and athleticism, and Ive used that to overcome my deficencies and get to where I am, but Im losing to this level, the level where Im playing top 200-300 players and getting beat soundly, again once where I played and competed my very best.
Ive had success in my area and beaten several top 700 and below players, good college players, and built confidence, had a feeling like I want to see where I can go, and now I feel like Im no good even after Ive had a couple great years and have kept improving for the last 6-7 years every year. I dont know what to do now, I dont know what I can do to make it right. The way I feel, I could somehow try to let the losses go and lift,run/train 3 times harder than I ever have even when I already work very hard, but that probably wont help me alot, or enough to win against this level. I can keep trying to improve my serve, but Im not sure I will ever be able to have a "great" serve, for this level. My strokes I basically learned myself through basic guidance, and Im not sure if I can change much. Maybe I dont need to, or maybe just a little.
I probably just somehow need to accept that its near impossible to have everything in place to make it in this sport. And considering where Im coming from, Ive done alright. I can keep working hard and try to enjoy the game, try to keep improving, but realize that its alot harder to improve the better you get, and there is a limit. I guess I think I want to run. lift and workout like a maniac, and improve my serve, and maybe that can push me closer to that level. 5 years ago, I would have loved to be where Im at, so I think if youre as competitive as I am, eventually it wears out, and youre not satisfied, and youre hoping for the next step. There can be only one #1, it is a tough fact of life...
Thanks for all the really supportive people on here. Thats it for now, Im off to do some hard jump rope...
This loss hurts though. I had a tough time getting over my loss to Strode this summer, when I played very well and still got handled. I feel like Im no good at tennis, Im losing confidence. I dont think ill be as good as I want to be unfortunately. Alot of it is just having an upbringing in rural Minnesota without access to good players and far away from indoor courts, and not having been trained for the very best technique. Im sure I would have been alot better if I had grown up in ideal situations, and touring/playing full time after, but even then I probably still wouldnt have made it. It is hard because I am so competitive, and have such a burning desire to train and improve, and I play and practice at maximal focus and intensity nearly all the time, but I still lost. I have alot of speed and athleticism, and Ive used that to overcome my deficencies and get to where I am, but Im losing to this level, the level where Im playing top 200-300 players and getting beat soundly, again once where I played and competed my very best.
Ive had success in my area and beaten several top 700 and below players, good college players, and built confidence, had a feeling like I want to see where I can go, and now I feel like Im no good even after Ive had a couple great years and have kept improving for the last 6-7 years every year. I dont know what to do now, I dont know what I can do to make it right. The way I feel, I could somehow try to let the losses go and lift,run/train 3 times harder than I ever have even when I already work very hard, but that probably wont help me alot, or enough to win against this level. I can keep trying to improve my serve, but Im not sure I will ever be able to have a "great" serve, for this level. My strokes I basically learned myself through basic guidance, and Im not sure if I can change much. Maybe I dont need to, or maybe just a little.
I probably just somehow need to accept that its near impossible to have everything in place to make it in this sport. And considering where Im coming from, Ive done alright. I can keep working hard and try to enjoy the game, try to keep improving, but realize that its alot harder to improve the better you get, and there is a limit. I guess I think I want to run. lift and workout like a maniac, and improve my serve, and maybe that can push me closer to that level. 5 years ago, I would have loved to be where Im at, so I think if youre as competitive as I am, eventually it wears out, and youre not satisfied, and youre hoping for the next step. There can be only one #1, it is a tough fact of life...
Thanks for all the really supportive people on here. Thats it for now, Im off to do some hard jump rope...
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