This is a bit of a rant thread I guess.
I'm a senior in high school finishing up my college applications. Looking to study business/finance/economics after a lifetime of thinking I'd be doing medicine and pharmacy. Hoping to get an ROTC (any branch) scholarship, and even if I don't land one, I'll most likely do it anyways. Applied Early Decision to UPenn Wharton. Easily denied. So far I've only been auto-admitted to UT Austin, but still await confirmation on McCombs and the honors program. Now I'm applying to Cornell, Brown, UVA, NYU, Duke, UChicago, USC, and a few others. Basically the best target schools where ROTC is.
Looking at example essays and wastefully watching the "OMG Reading my *elite university* accepted essays" YouTube videos, I really don't feel cut out for this. These Cornell, UPenn, etc. kids have really molded their lives around what university and career they're in. National FBLA and DECA champs, athletic stars, stupid-rich international kids, the list goes on. A lot of these students deserve a spot where they are going. Some of them have the most remarkable, emotional, determined stories. And when some of the universities I look at have undergrad program class sizes of around 150 people, it's really hard to believe I have a chance.
I play tennis an almost unhealthy amount. I'm a racquet stringer, sometimes. Where I live in Texas the tennis community is really small, and my little "side business" really hasn't taken off the ground despite my efforts. At my relatively unknown public high school, I'm only top five, and even that could change. I have enough credits at the local community college to get an associates degree focusing in... Human Biology. Pretty useless when I'm now a business student. I was really an active member in only one organization in school, HOSA, which is a health science org.
I'm spending my Christmas trying to write these application essays. My family's tree doesn't even have any ornaments on it.
I think the best times of this year has been whenever I'm on the tennis court, my first time at my ROTC detachments Field Training Exercise, and whenever I'm on Talk Tennis.
Thanks for reading. Happy Holidays.