jakemcclain32
Banned
Dear TW members,
I have had a weekend to think about what I wanted to say, and since I don't have a thread anymore, this is the best place to bring it out in the open.
First off, I admit I am different. I take this verbal beating after verbal beating after verbal beating, and I don't seem to care. That is absolutely true, and it has nothing to do with any animosity I would have for any of my detractors. Nothing like that at all. I don't know them, and you don't know me, so I can't say anything is truly personal(with the exception of the coward that came out with that untrue story from long ago).
What I will explain is the motivation behind this tennis deal.
As I mentioned, I taught myself the game. Three hours a day against a garage door. Taught me a ton about hustle, but it didn't teach the technique, so now I do have bad habits that I've had for years. I didn't know my bad habits until recently. I mean I won a lot of matches against people I probably shouldn't have, and that can cloud your judgment a bit. I even played an A level guy in a rec and got exposed, but that didn't even open my eyes because I changed my game a bit and got some good shots in the second set. Even then I chalked it up to playing a guy much above my level, and I improved.
Then the tournament came around.
I should have probably opened my eyes in the first match I lost. Could not finish off my opponent, then go into a game that I'm not accustomed to, nor ready for yet and get bombed in the third set. Still, I should have a good chance in the consolation, right?
We all know what happened there, don't we?
That match opened every flaw I have in one fell swoop. Footwork bad, looping forehand, frying pan backhand, etc. Counter all that with having a real bad day, and not preparing my body, and it all rained down. I have watched that match probably 30 times to motivate myself. I will probably take that match down one day(probably months from now) when I am winning more, and I am improved. But I have to keep that around for myself, even as embarassing as it is to watch.
Now, about the DY comments.
I already reneged those comments, but I'll elaborate on them some more. As everybody knows, I never ever even came close to saying that my own game would take 2-3 games off of him...that would be mental. I was saying mistakes by himself would do that. I thought like that because, no matter how hard someone hit, or how precise they were, I always made it by, win or lose, with pure hustle and others mistakes. It's how I won against my peers, and stayed in matches against better players. That ended with the A level guy, and all of my past accomplishments ended with the tournament.
So I do want a fresh start, both with my game and with all of you folks here. I'm not mental, just a highly motivated individual that always wants improvement. That's where you guys can help. I do want to keep writing on my blog, and I do want to continue to show my videos for critique, but I don't want to continue the fighting. It's not worth it, and I want to get along with everyone.
I want to also explain about the "see how high I go" deal I do have. I actually hate simple goals because I always shoot for the stars. I'm always deathly afraid that if I set one goal, then I'll stick myself to that goal and plateau. Like for instance if I said I'd want to be a solid 3.5 to 4.0, then I wouldn't want to improve anymore. If I reach high over the years, and only hit 4.5 at tops, then that's no disappointment. That's a danged good improvement over where I have started from. But I'm just not a guy that wants to get really good at 3.5, and just keep winning 1st place trophies when that time comes. I don't want to be a 4.0 and sign up for 3.5 to obliterate them, when that time comes. I always want to improve and shoot for the stars. I do not ever want to plateau in anything I do.
Finally, there was someone that said that I need to figure out why people go on the attack with me. Well, let me explain my personality.
I have a strong personality. I do not let bad things get in my way, nor stop me from my goals. Been that way since I was in school. It has always given me enemies, and also given me some special friends that understand who I am, and what drives me every day. If I made 100% enemies, then I would try to figure why people hate me, or attack me, but since I've gotten the friends that I have, I just chalk it up to what I've dealt with all my life, and I'll deal with it the way I always have. In school, it was always 50/50. 50% of people hated me, 50% liked me. 50% of jocks liked me, 50% hated me. 50% of troublemakers liked me, and 50% hated me. I was the guy you called names, but never really picked a fight with because I'd fight back. It's just the way it always has been. I stayed single for five years saying that it'll take the right kind of girl to understand my personality, and love me for said personality. I've had that girl for eighteen months now, and while she irons out some wrinkles that I admittedly have, she doesn't want to change my personality, and I love that. I am who I am, and I am sticking to who I am.
So I digressed there for a second.
Anyway, I will start from scratch with my improvements. I just won a nice little rec match in a one setter 6-3, and put that on video, so I feel like I had some improvements here and there, but there's more work to do. Realize that I still stick to my original thought process of "I don't have a goal of how high, just want to see how far", but my timeline isn't so in a hurry. I saw my flaws on video, and what I have to work on now, and I do want help from everyone here on anything I can work on, and I would appreciate that.
Thank you for reading. I hope we can continue this.
Jake
I have had a weekend to think about what I wanted to say, and since I don't have a thread anymore, this is the best place to bring it out in the open.
First off, I admit I am different. I take this verbal beating after verbal beating after verbal beating, and I don't seem to care. That is absolutely true, and it has nothing to do with any animosity I would have for any of my detractors. Nothing like that at all. I don't know them, and you don't know me, so I can't say anything is truly personal(with the exception of the coward that came out with that untrue story from long ago).
What I will explain is the motivation behind this tennis deal.
As I mentioned, I taught myself the game. Three hours a day against a garage door. Taught me a ton about hustle, but it didn't teach the technique, so now I do have bad habits that I've had for years. I didn't know my bad habits until recently. I mean I won a lot of matches against people I probably shouldn't have, and that can cloud your judgment a bit. I even played an A level guy in a rec and got exposed, but that didn't even open my eyes because I changed my game a bit and got some good shots in the second set. Even then I chalked it up to playing a guy much above my level, and I improved.
Then the tournament came around.
I should have probably opened my eyes in the first match I lost. Could not finish off my opponent, then go into a game that I'm not accustomed to, nor ready for yet and get bombed in the third set. Still, I should have a good chance in the consolation, right?
We all know what happened there, don't we?
That match opened every flaw I have in one fell swoop. Footwork bad, looping forehand, frying pan backhand, etc. Counter all that with having a real bad day, and not preparing my body, and it all rained down. I have watched that match probably 30 times to motivate myself. I will probably take that match down one day(probably months from now) when I am winning more, and I am improved. But I have to keep that around for myself, even as embarassing as it is to watch.
Now, about the DY comments.
I already reneged those comments, but I'll elaborate on them some more. As everybody knows, I never ever even came close to saying that my own game would take 2-3 games off of him...that would be mental. I was saying mistakes by himself would do that. I thought like that because, no matter how hard someone hit, or how precise they were, I always made it by, win or lose, with pure hustle and others mistakes. It's how I won against my peers, and stayed in matches against better players. That ended with the A level guy, and all of my past accomplishments ended with the tournament.
So I do want a fresh start, both with my game and with all of you folks here. I'm not mental, just a highly motivated individual that always wants improvement. That's where you guys can help. I do want to keep writing on my blog, and I do want to continue to show my videos for critique, but I don't want to continue the fighting. It's not worth it, and I want to get along with everyone.
I want to also explain about the "see how high I go" deal I do have. I actually hate simple goals because I always shoot for the stars. I'm always deathly afraid that if I set one goal, then I'll stick myself to that goal and plateau. Like for instance if I said I'd want to be a solid 3.5 to 4.0, then I wouldn't want to improve anymore. If I reach high over the years, and only hit 4.5 at tops, then that's no disappointment. That's a danged good improvement over where I have started from. But I'm just not a guy that wants to get really good at 3.5, and just keep winning 1st place trophies when that time comes. I don't want to be a 4.0 and sign up for 3.5 to obliterate them, when that time comes. I always want to improve and shoot for the stars. I do not ever want to plateau in anything I do.
Finally, there was someone that said that I need to figure out why people go on the attack with me. Well, let me explain my personality.
I have a strong personality. I do not let bad things get in my way, nor stop me from my goals. Been that way since I was in school. It has always given me enemies, and also given me some special friends that understand who I am, and what drives me every day. If I made 100% enemies, then I would try to figure why people hate me, or attack me, but since I've gotten the friends that I have, I just chalk it up to what I've dealt with all my life, and I'll deal with it the way I always have. In school, it was always 50/50. 50% of people hated me, 50% liked me. 50% of jocks liked me, 50% hated me. 50% of troublemakers liked me, and 50% hated me. I was the guy you called names, but never really picked a fight with because I'd fight back. It's just the way it always has been. I stayed single for five years saying that it'll take the right kind of girl to understand my personality, and love me for said personality. I've had that girl for eighteen months now, and while she irons out some wrinkles that I admittedly have, she doesn't want to change my personality, and I love that. I am who I am, and I am sticking to who I am.
So I digressed there for a second.
Anyway, I will start from scratch with my improvements. I just won a nice little rec match in a one setter 6-3, and put that on video, so I feel like I had some improvements here and there, but there's more work to do. Realize that I still stick to my original thought process of "I don't have a goal of how high, just want to see how far", but my timeline isn't so in a hurry. I saw my flaws on video, and what I have to work on now, and I do want help from everyone here on anything I can work on, and I would appreciate that.
Thank you for reading. I hope we can continue this.
Jake