I haven't posted here in a long time.
Too many people were too cruel to each other for my liking. And I got cruel too. Mean and petty at times when I could have been quiet and hit ignore. So I left for a while. It's been nice to be gone.
Sometimes I visit and I see a lot of folks biting and devouring each other with cruel jabs and words (stuff that would hurt
me anyway), and the never-ending GOAT arguments that go absolutely nowhere and get personal and unkind ... and it confirms I did the right thing for myself to stop posting. Maybe a lot of folks here have thicker skin and don't let it get to them as much.
But I have looked at some of these posts about Fed's loss and it's effect and I wanted to briefly chime in cause I feel solidarity and hurt with so many of you.
I can not imagine him losing in a more painful way for a tennis match. Worse than 2-2-2 for sure (for me). It feels like it was almost "horrifying" to come that close and lose. Two match points in the 5th for the championship. It would have capped his career for me perfectly. Nadal and Novak back to back. Just the tiniest angle on either 1st serves improved and he's there. Hands held high, tears of joy.
And it all blew up. For me - it was almost violently bad emotionally. I still can barely believe he lost.
And while I totally relate to - and have been similar to - some here who have been devastated, I think
@Ann and some others are right: I dare say, I think it's too much and unhealthy to be so traumatized as maybe some of us (including me) can be about tennis.
For me - as embarrassing as it might be to admit in terms of how tangled up I can get - I've had to pray (for Fed, for me, for Novak) and to try keep my perspective on my faith in Christ and eternally important things to help me regain perspective and not be weighed low.
I have a wife and little kids and a church family to care for. I have a father in law who died a few weeks ago... and my own dad who died in November. I have very little precious years left (even if I get 40 more!) that will go by so quick. Because life is so short here.
AND:
It is just a game. With yellow fuzzy balls. and sticks.
It really is just that. A game with balls.
There are poor people who need my help, there are depressed people who need my encouragement. And (I believe) there are people who need the good news I have about God's forgiveness and new life in Christ (no offense intended if that is not your thing).
There is no way "who wins this match" - if there is a God as I believe - matters deeply to Him. Not compared to people starving and killing each other and all the real preventable suffering and waste and hurt that covers so much of our world.
What matters is loving each other and faith. Fed and his kids and Mirka caring for each other. Novak being faithful to Jelena and loving his family. Them using their platform for good in the world like they seem to try to do. Setting good examples in their striving for excellence while respecting each other.
Fed will always be my favorite athlete ever by a million miles. I truly love him too much!
He is absolutely amazing.
But I can't call it sane or wise or freedom to let a tennis match crush me for days.
I just can't let that go without fighting it. It's replacing God and my family and others who need me with some guy who doesn't know me, need me, and never will - who plays a game with sticks and balls.
To me - it's just heart level idolatry - and then getting my ass rightly kicked for it.
But - yeah - boy. It's been a real fight to get and keep my bearings.
With that said:
GO FED. Be21eve (and enjoy his game win or lose while we have him).
Peace and cheers to all of you, my fellow Fed fans (and Novak and Rafa fans as well)!