I suspect your frustrations are your own doing. You've consistently set the bar way too high as to what level you wanted to be at versus the level you were playing at. And I think you got injured a while back, pre-virus, if memory serves, so maybe you haven't played much in a while? Anyhow, virus issues will dissipate eventually. Your injury will heal eventually. Then you can start playing again. No big deal. No need to quit. I mean, you continue to be obsessed with tennis even as you're not playing it, so what else are you going to do? I humbly suggest just trying to enjoy hitting the ball around if/when you get back on the court instead of making it a competition with yourself that you're sure to lose. That's worth exactly what you paid for it.
Thanks for taking your time and trying to help me with motivating words.
Its not about that tho, yeah I was injured for a long time but im good now, and quarantene is over, we can play tennis for a few weeks now.
My issue at the moment is that due to covid19 ive lost my job which sucks and at the moment theres nothing on the market, the situation is bad, so im unemployed, hence even tho we can play I can't really train now and waste money on that... which is fine, I said to miself that since I can't really train or play leagues or stuff which cost alot, im going to focus this summer on just matchplay and play with people, just points, sets etc... it should be useful to get alot of mileage at least, and you basically pay 100$ here and have unlimited court time and reservations for the summer so its dirt cheap so i can still play alot,even if I cant train, so I wanted to play as much as possible like that.
Well few weeks into it all... ive played only twice and the rest ive only went to practice my serve with a bucket... The problem is I just can't get anyone to play... and its frustrating as hell... I can't even play tennis ffs.. so im so frustrated about it and
started thinking why even bother then if can't even play, might aswell quit till I have a job and can start to pay for leagues and stuff and practice, which im assured to play then.. but im gonna keep trying to get somehow to play more, but I don't have much ideas how... im probably gonna ask all the ppl I know if they know some ppl who play tennis.
I know like 8-10 ppl... alot right?.... well not really, when you can't get them to play...
"Im not playing tennis atm im having a break"
"Man im pretty sick lately I got the flu or something"
"Im all f*** up man, can barely walk"
"Im playing 3 leagues and don't have time"
"Im having a operation for a grown nail can't now"
"No time this week or next week, maybe after that"
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