Jealousy, media, and classism hatred, as well as just pure unfettered organic hatred. My feelings towards him aren't really any different than my general misanthropic feelings towards the majority of people in life. I have a select few I love dearly, and am lukewarm towards pretty much everyone else on the inside. I'm usually polite in public to people, but there's definitely underlying feelings there oftentimes.
I just get tired of all the HS of depression and everyday life and feeling bitter about my situation and just the general indignities of life. I have always identified with punk anti-hero stuff (hence my avatar) because it's my way of trying to show strength against the backdrop of evil and trying to fight my weaknesses (I'm a sensitive and easily hurt person deep down). One of my favorite quotes ever is George Carlin saying: "Scratch any cynical person and you will find a disappointed idealist". That describes exactly how I feel. Such is the plight of being an INFP in an ESTJ world and ESTP nation..